The song Фанатка (Мы остаёмся одни) was born in 2008, at a time when I was still searching for my sound and trying different ways of expressing myself. Back then, I did not see myself as a singer, so the track naturally took shape through recitative, with a touch of rap in its flow. At its core was a deeply personal story about a fan whose feelings gradually became painful and crossed the line of ordinary affection. For me, it was a difficult experience that made me think for the first time about how powerful, fragile, and at the same time destructive unreturned attachment can be. This song was never meant as a judgment, but rather as an honest attempt to show the inner side of such a story through the eyes of the person caught in the center of that obsession.
At first, I saw it as just one more step in my creative path, without imagining that it would later take on a life of its own. Yet over time, the track began to resurface online and quietly connect with listeners, many of whom remembered it under a different title, We Stay Alone Inside. After many years, the moment finally came to return to this story and let it breathe again in a new form. That is how it became Alone Inside, sung in English and reborn through a female voice. The new version revealed a different emotional depth: the same loneliness, the same vulnerability, the same quiet pain, but now expressed with more tenderness and an entirely new shade of feeling. It no longer felt like a simple reworking of an old song, but like its continuation, more mature, more intimate, and finally complete.
We stay alone inside
Are empty words now
And there is no more love
in your eyes to find
We feel the day ahead
With cold and fear glow
My heart will cry tonight
Tears burn inside
You ready to break, you ready to bleed,
In a single minute give up everything you need.
You don’t wanna face what can cut you deep,
Blind love in your heart, makin’ promises you keep.
You ready to listen, you ready to run,
But when you’re all alone, chills hit like a gun.
All your little moments traded out for nothin’,
Fallin’ asleep sweet, dreamin’ lies like it’s somethin’.
You’re a tear on the flowers, illusions meltin’ slow,
Lost in quicksand words, forgettin’ what you know.
Ain’t even choosin’ now what’s happenin’ to you,
Waved off your life like you’re done with the truth.
Blind dreams, no answer, still you stay with me,
Eyes closed shut but your soul can see.
You ready for it all just to stand by my side,
No more steps left — standin’ right at the line.
We stay alone inside
Are empty words now
And there is no more love
in your eyes to find
We feel the day ahead
With cold and fear glow
My heart will cry tonight
Tears burn inside
You don’t wanna make peace, you ready to scream,
Hatin’ that another might be touchin’ my dream.
Venom of jealousy fills your veins, no release,
Draggin’ your loyalty down, darkness takin’ your peace.
You don’t wanna hear ’bout the vanity game,
But you bite your own lips just to kill the pain.
You don’t wanna accept losin’ somethin’ again,
Breakin’ things on repeat like it’s part of the plan.
Spellin’ out words that you want me to say,
Pickin’ lines from my songs, keepin’ ’em in your brain.
Checkin’ my replies to your questions inside,
Turnin’ your pain into fairy tales just to survive.
Every day in the details, breakin’ time on the clock,
Cryin’ somewhere at night till the sunrise knocks.
You hate on yourself, smash your soul in a fight,
Fall asleep on your dreams, lonely every night.